I'm Still Broken

Well, I finally feel like I have something to blog about, but it may be that I'm the only one that got anything out of it!! But, I'll share it with you anyway!

During tis season of my life, which seems yet undefinable, I have not been writing very many songs...I just haven't been "getting" any from Heaven, except one here and one there...with months in between. Well, I just penned one about how I feel about my life at this time, and it's called "I'm Still Broken". (I don't know if that title will hit you as glorifying to God or un-glorifying to God, but either way here's the story...)

Today I got a call from a long-time friend, and I shared the song lyrics with him and he seemed to be able to relate. Then we talked about brokeness, and he shared with me how he could go to all lengths to repair and refurbish a broken vase, and it would look like new and be used as if it were new, but really, underneath, it is really broken. After he said that, and I realized that it was so true, I remembered what happened this morning....

I had an old piece of my Mom's, a ceramic "sleigh" from the 50's, up on top of my refrigerator for a while. I took it down just this morning and decided to wash it and put Christmassy smelling potpourri in it. When I took it down and pulled the old newspapers out of the inside of it, I saw where it had been totally broken and glued together, possibly many times over. I said aloud, with noone around, "That thing has been mended so many times...someone must've really liked it!" ...My friend got it, and I think I got it....now, do you?

God likes us!!! He is committed (with His own Life's blood) to us 100%. He likes us so much, that He is going to continue to "fix us" every time we get broken. He makes us "fit for The Master's use"! The cracks let The Light (IN US~JESUS) shine through! "In our weakness, His strength is made perfect." And even more miraculous, He is "conforming us to His image".

God has determined in His own heart and mind that He will form Christ in us...that is IN and WITH our brokeness, and sometimes, I think, because of it. So, with all this profundity behind me now, I will just suffice it to leave you with the lyrics to a new song I wrote down recently....

"I'm Still Broken".

I thought by now I'd have a few things together

I thought by now I'd have a few things down

I've run this race for so long, pressing toward The Prize

But I still feel that I have sooo far to go...

I thought by now that I'd be a better Christian

I thought by now I'd have this "LOVE" thing down

But the longer I live, the more pieces of my life just fall apart...

They fall apart, until I know that

I'm still broken ~ Yeah I'm still broken

Oh God, You've got to hold the pieces of my life within Your hand

'Cause I'm still broken ~ Yeah I'm still broken

Breathe new Life into this clay and form a whole new man

'Cause I'm still broken.

I must've forgotten just how much You Love me

I must've stumbled somewhere and fallen behind

But You have prayed for me that my faith fail not

Lord, I believe...please help my unbelief,

'Cause I'm still broken ~ oh I'm so broken

Oh God, You've got to hold the pieces of my life within Your hand

'Cause I am broken ~ Yeah, I'm still broken

Breathe new Life into this clay and form a whole new man

'Cause I'm still broken.

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